Gleeful

Chris —  May 25, 2009

“These kids feel invisible.  That’s why they all have MySpace.”

I participated in choir from 7th grade through High School, and went on to major in music, thinking that someday I would be a choir director.  I did choir for a few reasons:  I was a good church of Christ boy, and had been harmonizing since before I could speak.  But I was also uncoordinated, out of shape, and a terrible student. 

My dream was that if I could be good at choir, I would become a different person.  It wasn’t like I dreamed of popularity or wealth.  It was just a vague sense that I desperately needed to be good at something, and choir was my only option.

On some level, it worked.  Although I never really felt accepted or had solos or starring roles, I did get to be a part of something.  The relationships I built by participating in choir in college are still among my closest today.  But in other ways it wasn’t a success.

The fact was, I didn’t cut it as a musician, and never went on to teach like I had hoped.  Instead, I racked up an unmentionable amount of debt chasing after a misguided dream. 

The premise for Glee feels like it was taken from my teenage sense of invisibility. Somehow I missed the message that my parents loved me, Jesus died for me, and I had infinite worth.  Choir helped for a little while, but it really just put off the inevitable.  What` can we do to keep the kids from feeling invisible?

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